I can do better?

If there's one phrase that would sum up what I've been told through all the relatively short relationships I've been in, its "You could do so much better than me."

Well, let me tell you. I would be alright if no one ever said that to me ever ever EVER again.

It makes me want to puke.

Seriously.

I think I know better than anyone else what I want or deserve. Wouldn't you think so?

I am not without flaws. For some reason, it apparently comes off that I have a spotless past or that I've never made a mistake before. All you boys can NOT be that naive to think I have never made a mistake or never done something I've regretted later.

Part of this "better than me" attitude you boys seem to have is you all seem to think I care about the past. The reality is I couldn't care less about your past! The thing that matters most in relationships is the future, not the past. Sure, I'll listen if you want to tell me what all went down but it really isn't so big a deal. So chillax ok?!

Consider this a plea to those in the future of my apparently bland and broken love life.

Let me be the one to decide what I deserve.

Let me be the one to decide what is good enough for me.

Let me be the one to determine some of this stuff, huh?

Here's a clue if you're wondering if I can do better than you or not:

 If I'm with you, then you are what I want.

Simple as that.

I am very capable of making decisions for myself. I can't tell you if you are in fact "good enough" for me if you never give me the freaking chance. So give me the chance to make some decisions for myself before you jump on that "you can do better than me" band wagon.

(I apologize for all the red text. It's because I felt like I was seeing red.)