So the past few years have been rampant with changes. I graduated high school and now I am finishing my first year of college. To be entirely honest, it's been a whole lot harder than I thought it would be.
This last December I also got my first boyfriend. He's a really sweet guy and I love him. I'm a little worried about the summer because he lives in Utah and I live in Southern California. We've kind of been doing the long distance thing the whole time we've been dating but it is going to be harder now. We've seen each other on weekends and sometimes during the week but rarely. Now, I don't really know when I'll see him at all. He's planning on coming down at some point in the summer but its still kind of up in the air. I hope it works out since I've met a lot of his family but he's met barely any of mine. And I have a lot of friends that want to meet him. No pressure for him though :] haha
Now, I am back in SoCal and I wonder what everything is gonna be like. Things definitely won't be like when I lived at home last summer. I currently sleep in a trundle bed that slides under my youngest sister's bed. We're working on changing that though because sleeping on a trundle bed is so not great.
I am working on getting a job. Once I get a job I'll have my own money to spend and I think it will help me to feel a little independent even though I'm living at home. Unfortunately, no one wants to hire a young adult that has literally zero work experience and won't work on Sundays. I would really like to work at Disney Land or something like that but the whole no Sundays thing seems to be a deal breaker.
I would like to go on a road trip this summer and go see all my friends that happen to be all over but I don't know if its possible what with trying to get a job. I would absolutely love to be able to go and spend a couple days back in Normal. It would be really awesome to be able to go up to Idaho and see everyone there too. It's kind of funny because they are both places that, when you are stuck there, you want nothing more than to be somewhere else. But once you leave, you want to go back so bad.
I love being home. I love being with my family. I love the warm. It's so awesome. Everyone is getting along really well right now but I worry that this state of kindness and sweetness won't last. Someday I know we'll all go back to just being family and get in fights and arguments and tiffs. Hopefully more days than not the world will be peachy.
Obviously, I have a lot of worries. A lot of stuff has happened but so much more has to happen. So much has changed but theres still a lot of change coming my way. I am where I am and I like it, mostly. I am here for better or worse, I cannot change my situation so I must make the best of it.
